The more time I spend apart from you.. The more I think about what I could’ve done to keep us together. There’s a lot what if’s going through my head but I think again and remember everything happens for a reason. This is the way things were meant to be. I can’t fight faith. Faith brought us together the first time right? So there’s a chance for a second time. But I will not force it. I will it let happen on its own. I am forever thankful for meeting you. You changed my view on love and showed me how beautiful it can be. Our love was no accident. The relationship we had was a different one. No one and I mean NO ONE understood what I felt for you but yet again no one mattered but you. I was so busy trying to let the world know I love you that maybe I wasn’t showing you enough of it. I had put my guard back up because I was crushed by the love of my life and from then on my attitude changed for the worse. I can no longer blame you though. We both brought us where we are today. I can’t thank you enough for giving me the best 2 years of my life.
Forever My Baby
I won’t lie.. I am proud of myself for letting you go. It sucks and everyone and they mama know I love you but I needed to finally prove to you that I am not always going to let you walk over me. I know you’re a wonderful lover and even a better friend BUT we’ve had too many downfalls that just made me realize we need time apart. Not saying for good but definitely not saying we’re gonna get back together. Never during those years did I say Im leaving you. I finally did and It was the worst feeling. I was very crazy in love with you. I never did the stuff I did for you for anyone else. I felt very selfless when I was with you. YES, we both have fucked up BIG TIME but we just looked past it.. and that made me love you even more. It was time for me to be selfish and walk away. Im sorry. I know you probably hate me more than ever but I just need this for myself. I always kept my anger for you to myself. I always wanted you to feel like you were making me the happiest girl on earth.. but I wasnt happy. I felt alone in this relationship. I felt forgotten, lost, angry and sad. I smiled and smiled until I just broke down. I’ve been missing you lately but I refuse to admit it. I love you. Take care.
If she can smile. We can smile.
(Source: mymindislikeaboxofcats, via aphokingniceguy-deactivated2012)
